ha, just watch.

failed surprise parties occur in my head

restless and sleepless nights stop me from connecting with my bed

i feel pathetic and ill-favored

unpleasant thoughts stop me from feeling favored

or maybe the feeling is actually true

with knowing that people wouldn’t go to limits for me that i’d usually do

the ones i’ve connected with only stayed cause i’ve stayed connected, there i said it

cause when my hands aren’t out i’m the one that’s lonesome and gets neglected

it’s been years since i’ve wanted to disappear without any explanation

and never come back, cause i know if i do i’ll once again be forsaken

the little man in my head showed/shows me things i hate to see

but at least he’s honest unlike everyone else stuck around me

i feel like a joke that gets told over and over again

what’s the point of life if it eventually comes to an end?

i feel like my signs of melancholy are taken lightly and are seen as untrue

i stay quiet but in reality i’m seething and feel bluer than blue

i’ve been planning my fading for some time now, my eyes are on the clock

others might think it’s a bluff

ha, just watch.